"If you don’t go after what you want, you’ll never have it. If you don’t ask, the answer is always no. If you don’t step forward, you’re always in the same place."

— Nora Roberts

its true.

and..
i am going to bed now!
because my eyes is closing!
good night world!
:)


Yoga lesson today was great.
a lil bit of stretching was good.
but haha. i like the last part when we were ask to lay down and then close our eyes, i almost fall asleep!
which i indeed slept after i reach home for like 3 hours!
maybe i lack of sleep the previous night because the weather is very hot!
urghhh.

:)

tomorrow Monday.
okay.
i am off to continue to watch F1.


白白的-张韶涵

空白白的，白的天又浑沌变黑。
我算是谁， 醒了还在原地。
白白的，灵魂的诗会很容易碎。
落入眼里，想哭却没有眼泪。
哦，生怕把一切都砸个粉碎。
只有你才能给我一次欣慰。

你是无形的伤口。
你拼吧你咬一口。
再多的爱也不够。
都不够。
不够。
超完美，伤口。

空白白的，白天又浑沌变黑。
怕遇到谁，难言的安慰。
哦白白的，赤裸的心会很容易碎。
落入眼里，想哭却没有眼泪。
哦，生怕自己也砸个粉碎。
到最尾谁会给我一次欣慰。

你是无形的伤口，
你拼吧你咬一口，
再多的爱也不够，
都不够，不够。
超完美，伤口。
都不够，却还有。

空白白的，我的心会一碰就碎，
只有你才能给我一次欣慰。

你是无形的伤口，
你拼吧你咬一口，
再多的爱也不够，
都不够，不够。
超完美，伤口。


F1 SINGAPORE 2009!!
:)

Mark Webber(RBR-Renault) have been going strong until he crash his car crash during practice 2. (sigh)
Hamilton(McLaren-Mercedes), hope u drive a lil faster later during qualifying so you doesn't end up at the back.
Ferrari will come up with something magical too, since Kimi Raikkonen clock the fastest lap timing last year, so they should get lucky too, am i right?
it's the F1 week.
lets HYPE up about F1.
hahaha.

:)
till then.






Wait for the person who pursues you, the one who will make an ordinary moment seem magical, the kind of person who brings out the best in you and makes you want to be a better person. Wait for the person who will be your best friend, the only person who will drop everything to be with you at any time no matter what the circumstances. Wait for the person who makes you smile like no one else and when they smile you know they need you. Wait for the person who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweat and a t-shirt, but appreciates it when you get dressed up for them. Most of all wait for the person who will put you at the center of their universe, because that’s where you belong.

— Unknown

nice, meaningful.
and its true.
and yeah.
let's all wait.
haha.
:))

looking forward to Friday gathering with my friends!
and then its the weekends.

till then!


i had fun tonight!
:)
went Ikea Tampines after work with 2 of the sotongs! TING,you really miss out a lot of gossips le. =P
because me and xj had fun "teasing" the "story-telling" from felicia.
haha.

ahh.
maybe i should type out the minutes for you le, ting! :))

bought yoghurt home from giant.
and the three of us talk at the bus stop before the 2 board the bus back.
and i walk back to Pasir Ris to take bus home.

and i think the horoscope for Virgo of October is going to be true for her under the magazine.
but too bad, they list my birthdate under Leo as the last day for leo, instead of the beginning for virgo.
but for leo, which i guess its a lil true.
LOL.
anyway, that magazine is meant for girls lah. HAHAHAHA.

till then.
have a good night.

i am hungry again.
sighh. x


<<低调>>-张栋梁

嬉笑 打闹 拥抱
留下了那么多开心合照
互相取暖依靠 熬过了最低潮
一起生活 也一起埋
怨过 走过最好与最糟
我在心里想的不用说明 你知道

晨昏日夜颠倒 这房子突然没从前热闹
散落一地微笑 没有人去打扫
感情很微妙 再多付出
也好 再多关心都徒劳

爱从来就没有固定的轨道
它最后停在哪里谁知道

我的难过是如此低调 因为不想打扰
我在寂寞的墙角 努力的对自己好
你用微笑回报 朋友或情人不重要
我的悲伤是如此低调 傻子才会哭闹
就算你发现也好 我想你一定会选择假装不知道
只怕我自己的掩饰不够好

晨昏日夜颠倒 这房子突然没从前热闹
散落一地微笑 没有人去打扫
感情很微妙 再多付出
也好 再多关心都徒劳

爱从来就没有固定的轨道
它最后停在哪里谁知道

我的难过是如此低调 因为不想打扰
我在寂寞的墙角 努力的对自己好
你用微笑回报 朋友或情人不重要
我的悲伤是如此低调 傻子才会哭闹
就算你发现也好 我想你一定会选择假装不知道
只怕我自己的掩饰不够好

我的难过是如此低调 因为不想打扰
我在寂寞的墙角 努力的对自己好
你用微笑回报 朋友或情人不重要
我的悲伤是如此低调 傻子才会哭闹
就算你发现也好 我想你一定会选择假装不知道
难到是我对我自己不够好

:)
love this song.
totally addicted.

good night world!


just reach home from Downtown East.
went to NUM Flip Flops and bought 2 pairs of slippers.
=P
one for bro, one for me!

and school officially starts tomorrow for all my other friends.
and its back to work tomorrow for working people too.

how the long weekends just pass like this.
but yeah, time don't wait for people.
haha.

:)

till then!


"The hardest thing to do is watch the one you love, love someone else"

yup, its true.
but whats the point of thinking when nothing is ever going to change.
:)

i guess its easier to console people than the one being console by others.
because ultimately in the end.
its up to you, whether you want to listen and heed what was being told.

i thought i am always rationale.
but this time round, i think i got to prove myself wrong. :(
so sad right? haha.

but after this episode, i realise its foolish enough to think and still to think (no i am not anymore).
its just that once in awhile, its a what if i had this and that, would it have make a much difference to everything.
but i guess it wouldn't have make much difference though still.

thanks a lot to you. seriously i need to. [though i know you will never read]
making me grow overnight.
for becoming stronger.
for becoming more independent.
for changing my thinkings.
and most importantly, to find my ownself back.
all this. its all just because of you.
wish you happiness yeah! haha.
and no doubt, we are still friends.
:)

there you really really go away from me.
this time round i didn't cry, nor am i upset or anything
i just feel relieve. like as if all the tangle hearts have been untangled into one.
:)

life have been great for the last three days. really.
compared to last Sunday till the end of Thurs and compared to the past 2 weeks.

its the Sunday.
and its 20/09/2009.
Selamat Hari Raya to all my Muslim friends out there.
and Miss L, enjoy your day alright! haha.

till then!
enjoy the remaining holidays everyone!
:))


:)

had a good start to the weekends!
with good breakfast for the day.

but i know its going to end with the bad start if there's likely cramps now.
stupid time of the month.
urghh, i still thinking of going swimming tomorrow.

nose is still block.
my mom bought Durian Mooncake.
she ask me can smell the Durian smell a not, i say dots, my nose is block. how to smell.
URGHHHHHHHHHH.
but on the lucky side, its not sneezing anymore.

just don't let me fall sick again! =P

go and bath and go out soon to my friend house which is nearby!
hopefully i can get her router to work.
*pray*

Tank - 会长大的幸福

yeah~oh~
在夜市里逛地摊 送你一副耳环
你很喜欢 一整晚笑声不断
陪你看电影哭完 心里想爱好难
你很感慨现实会害人离散

你说浪漫 和贫富无关
是心让爱灿烂
在捷运车站 不在乎围观
感动亲吻起来

要你拥有会长大的幸福
一天比一天像公主
梦都被满足
为你种下会长大的幸福
让今天担心你的朋友
明天笑闹着嫉妒

要你有幸福 一天一天比一天像公主
梦都被满足
为你种下幸福
今天担心你的那些好朋友
笑闹着嫉妒

为你 生日的夜晚
亲手料理晚餐
你真可爱 很捧场吃两碗饭
你电话有点摔坏
一直想帮你换
努力加班 你心疼的泪打颤

你说浪漫 和贫富无关
是心让爱灿烂
在捷运车站 不在乎围观
感动亲吻起来

要你拥有会长大的幸福
一天比一天像公主
梦都被满足

为你种下会长大的幸福
让今天担心你的朋友
明天笑闹着嫉妒

爱是送你会长大的幸福
用生命为你变魔术
永远被保护
牵手围住会长大的幸福
任它开花结果变大树
我们唱着歌 欢呼
爱是聪明的幸福
每天每一天每天为你变魔术
永远被保护

:)

yet again.
i still can't find the answer.
its like finding a piece of puzzle in the vast ocean.
to fit into the puzzle piece.
hopefully the rusty brain in me is going to work fine soon.
to solve their problem.
hang on there, my friend!
:)

till then!


its the long weekends!
:))

well anyway, i did a lil shopping after work yesterday (technically its already Saturday) before buying dinner since i end work at 5pm.
but my nose is bad to me yeah.
the air con in the office is like so strong. that i think the only place in the entire office area which is not cold is the lecture room, or the training room CUPBOARD, and my workspace area.
the moment you step into the office, from the reception area is already cold.
the MRT i board was also very cold on the way back. i don't know is it because of the rain!
and then the next thing i knew after i alight from the mrt, i start to sneeze and my nose seriously like Rudolph the red nosed reindeer lah, but its good to visit the library, to visit the shops, and of course getting snacks. HAHA.
i am still not fine right now (as in my nose is still running and i feel like chopping away)
but whatever it is. i think i should be okay, if not i can't possibly help my friend later.
hopefully i will be fine after my good night sleep!

and how time flies.
October is coming like soon
and then it will be 2010.
can't it just goes a little slower.
:)

and everyone enjoy the long weekends yeah!
:)

shall look at some blog shop before retreating back to bed! =D

GOOD NIGHT/MORNING OUT THERE! =P


if i can talk crap already i should not be that anti-social anymore right.
especially talking over the phone for like 1 hours plus (suanning her is like whoot) and another one for 30mins plus(refer to below).

except i am worried over yesterday afternoon episode of vomiting out part of the lunch.
but anyway. it couldn't be stomach ulcer am i right, after i get all the symptoms and all from a friend. but i only vomit out, but no others symptoms eh?
but looking on a brighter side, maybe i am better later, ain't it.

shall not think so much to make myself so over worry.
let the nature takes it course!
:)

am hungry now.
shall find something to eat.
=P


<<爱的城堡>>-卓文萱

我穿越想念得到幸福 有爱丁堡来守护
把爱变成那里的宝物 从此爱就坚固

好像见你的冬天 我竟飞越了网路
降落古堡拥抱你 忘了零下几度
你住的小屋 亲眼目睹
激动地想哭 月光的小路 不在地图 变得好深度
那一幕 封街派对中你当众亲吻我
另一幕 空荡教堂里头婚礼没神父

我飞越想念得到幸福 有爱丁堡来守护
把爱变成那里的宝物 从此爱就坚固
军乐很鼓舞又超酷 协奏著爱我们会同步
爱的城堡我想要居住 你要给我幸福

不停斗嘴的夏天 不知不觉又结束
爱丁堡风很舒服 像你说话的温度
见面小礼物 内容丰富 我开心细数
跨年的跳舞 烟火庆祝 把爱照清楚
那一幕 我们第一次牵着手过马路
另一幕 雨后彩虹下约定着下一步

我穿越想念得到幸福 有爱丁堡来守护
把爱变成那里的宝物 从此爱就坚固
军乐很鼓舞又超酷 协奏著爱我们会同步
爱的城堡我想要居住 你要给我幸福

我穿越想念得到幸福 有爱丁堡来守护
把爱变成那里的宝物 从此爱就坚固
军乐很鼓舞又超酷 协奏著爱我们会同步
爱的城堡我想要居住 你要给我幸福

YES!!!
Lalalalalalalala 爱丁堡来守护
Lalalalalalalala 从此爱就坚固
Lalalalalalalala 爱丁堡来守护
Lalalalalalalala 从此爱就坚固

:)

alright.
lunch today was not good.
as in, i vomit out my bubble tea and part of the porridge as well. which i have no reason why it happens.
:(
the lacking of sleep in me is already turning into either sleeping disorder for me or insomnia which irritates me seriously. its turn my anti-social mood into its high scale in addition to the pms i am having. irritating lah. :(
and the part where i don't fall asleep easily in the bus or mrt just surprise me this few days too.
as for those who know me well, i can easily sleep in any public transport and miss my stop- it happen to me 4 times already, hahaha =P
so i hope this continue if not its so embarrassing to miss the stop, can? :(

100% done.
gone.
definitely better.
thank you all.
:)

till then!


48 hours for the past 2 days.
i slept in total of 7 hours.

i need more sleep.
and it isn't difficult anyway, am i right?

and the urge to vomit starts its fight against me since yesterday.
tough week ahead i foresee.
:(

my leg is aching away right now.
after all the walking done.

and its almost done. and gone away.
:)

till then!


it will take a lot of time, courage to get over.
but i already halfway or three quarter to it.

a lil step more to go.

and oh i bought a dress this evening.
haha.

:)


i still feel when you sms me, talk to me. and
when you hold her hands.

no i am better. seriously.
don't mistaken me.

everyone should
look forward.
haha.
i suddenly remember
look ahead, learn and innovate!
LOL!

everyone stay happy!
:)


http://www.indianchild.com/inspiring_stories.htm

The Window - Author Unknown.

Two men, both seriously ill, occupied the same hospital room. One man was allowed to sit up in his bed for an hour a day to drain the fluids from his lungs. His bed was next to the room's only window. The other man had to spend all his time flat on his back.

The men talked for hours on end. They spoke of their wives and families, their homes, their jobs, their involvement in the military service, where they had been on vacation. And every afternoon when the man in the bed next to the window could sit up, he would pass the time by describing to his roommate all the things he could see outside the window.

The man in the other bed would live for those one-hour periods where his world would be broadened and enlivened by all the activity and color of the outside world.

The window overlooked a park with a lovely lake, the man had said. Ducks and swans played on the water while children sailed their model boats. Lovers walked arm in arm amid flowers of every color of the rainbow. Grand old trees graced the landscape, and a fine view of the city skyline could be seen in the distance. As the man by the window described all this in exquisite detail, the man on the other side of the room would close his eyes and imagine the picturesque scene. One warm afternoon the man by the window described a parade passing by. Although the other man could not hear the band, he could see it in his mind's eye as the gentleman by the window portrayed it with descriptive words. Unexpectedly, an alien thought entered his head: Why should he have all the pleasure of seeing everything while I never get to see anything?

It didn't seem fair. As the thought fermented, the man felt ashamed at first. But as the days passed and he missed seeing more sights, his envy eroded into resentment and soon turned him sour. He began to brood and found himself unable to sleep. He should be by that window --- and that thought now controlled his life.

Late one night, as he lay staring at the ceiling, the man by the window began to cough. He was choking on the fluid in his lungs. The other man watched in the dimly lit room as the struggling man by the window groped for the button to call for help. Listening from across the room, he never moved, never pushed his own button which would have brought the nurse running. In less than five minutes, the coughing and choking stopped, along with the sound of breathing. Now, there was only silence-deathly silence.

The following morning the day nurse arrived to bring water for their baths. When she found the lifeless body of the man by the window, she was saddened and called the hospital attendant to take it away-no works, no fuss.

As soon as it seemed appropriate, the man asked if he could be moved next to the window. The nurse was happy to make the switch and after making sure he was comfortable, she left him alone. Slowly, painfully, he propped himself up on one elbow to take his first look. Finally, he would have the joy of seeing it all himself. He strained to slowly turn to look out the window beside the bed...........

It faced a blank wall.

Moral of the story:
The pursuit of happiness is a matter of choice...it is a positive attitude we consciously choose to express. It is not a gift that gets delivered to our doorstep each morning, nor does it come through the window. And I am certain that our circumstances are just a small part of what makes us joyful. If we wait for them to get just right, we will never find lasting joy.

The pursuit of happiness is an inward journey. Our minds are like programs, awaiting the code that will determine behaviors; like bank vaults awaiting our deposits. If we regularly deposit positive, encouraging, and uplifting thoughts, if we continue to bite our lips just before we begin to grumble and complain, if we shoot down that seemingly harmless negative thought as it germinates, we will find that there is much to rejoice about.


finally changed my blogskin the early morning.
after contemplating what happen to the previous design.

oh well.
never mind.

i am still affected.
but still.
i shouldn't!

tomorrow is Monday!
:(


screwed with the previous blogskins.

ahhhh

what happen to blogger?


nobody says everything in the world is easy.

tell me why do i still feel this way.

oh well.
its the weekends!
:)

enjoy!

edited:
why do my blog all the links just went missing?!


the only way
is to climb harder.
fight harder.

and that's all.
screwed with Internet Banking now.

and today a nice date!
:)

09/09/09!


nice day!
:)

job job, fall down from the sky.

and oh i saw a guy whose eyes look so damn nice can in the mrt way back home today.
haha.

its time for me to sleep.
good night!
:)





we are still friends.
good friend, best friend.
i am glad we are both so rationale. (okay , i admit i am not this time round, haha)
but i am glad i get back my level head.
:)

and thank you friends.
for my unnecessary grumblings.
unnecessary complaining.

oh i had pictures to upload.
but the problem is.

i can't seem to find my cable.
gotten salary.
i want to buy the camera.
IT fair next week.
its the time to go and see see again!

and i need to refurnish my resume.
can some jobs just drop down from the sky?
:(

tomorrow Monday.
sigh.


people are funny.
they talk things without thinking before they realise what they have said is wrong or rather so wrong..

well.
its a Saturday!

i shall not spoilt my mood over somethings which i am so tired after it already.

and..
Nothing's gonna change my love for you- 方大同

If I had to live my life without you near me
The days would all be empty
The nights would seem so long
With you I see forever oh so clearly
I might have been in love before
But it never felt this strong
Our dreams are young and we both know
They'll take us where we want to go
Hold me now, touch me now
I don't want to live without you

CHORUS:
Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by now how much I love you
One thing you can be sure of
I'll never ask for more than your love
Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by now how much I love you
The world may change my whole life through
But nothing's gonna change my love for you

If the road ahead is not so easy
Our love will lead a way for us
Like a guiding star
I'll be there for you if you should need me
You don't have to change a thing
I love you just the way you are
So come with me and share the view
I'll help you see forever too
Hold me now, touch me now
I don't want to live without you


better than never before!
and yes, TGIF!

:)

ENJOY THE WEEKENDS EVERYONE!


i finally change my blogskins!
:)

i want to go KTV.
who wants to go?
haha.

i am better in the sense of accepting the fact.
but somehow, i wish i can escape from all the negative things i have heard.
maybe i can choose what to hear, or what not to hear.
but somehow, its difficult to choose whether or what i want to hear it or not to hear.
but

that's life.
i suppose.

:)

Good night everyone!
till then!


today is a beautiful day!
:)


stop crying.
i think i will go blind at the rate my tears are pouring.
i am feeling okay or better until it struck me again just now.
that i decide to bath and just cried while bathing away.

tomorrow
the sun will shine.
the grass will be greener.

but to me.
tomorrow, will be still as colourless.
i failed myself for the past 23 years, didn't do anything proud.
this time round, i failed the last one as well.
is it i have to live up to my expectations so i can be more happy.
or is it because i am bitter everyone did better than me.
maybe its the comparison.
or maybe its because everyone improve in their results and everything, while me, stagnant the whole time over there.
makes me feel so ...
sigh.

and i need to thank you.
seriously.
making and letting me wake up of this dreams.

pardon me.
for locking and unlocking this blog.

Good night/morning once again.
:)


i feel like shit.
i am like the worst among the whole lot of the rest of the 7 people.
i feel like the pipe is going to burst soon.
and water is going to flow all over again.

whatever or wherever have gone wrong, I don’t know.
people scoring higher than me when I suppose to score better than what I have gotten?
where went wrong?
what went wrong?

i feel so wrong, so embarrassed of myself.
because
i should be happy, be grateful, be thankful, be blessed
instead of feeling the other way round.
what’s wrong with me?
*screams*


the concern, the care and everything might be gone.
i know that.

and so why should i be so bothered by it.

small pea brain DD.
please wake up.
you shouldn't be bothered, seriously.
i am not that affected in the past, but why i am this time round?

and to all my friends: god will path the way for you. take a lil step, and you will know what to do for the next!

and i should be thankful!

and i want to sign up for yoga!

Good night/Morning! :)

DeDuan / DD
23, LPS, CSS, TP, SIM, 23/08/1986
shy, independent/dependent, perfectionist
music, piano, shopping, family & friends make up her life
loves cheescakes & chocolates,beach & stars
wish for honours(hopefully), driving license, travel around the world, happily ever after, get a good job, diamonds, digital camera

Websites i go to-
Beatrice Charlene Charmaine the feisty princess Digg hungry go where Jaime Teo Jeanette Aw Jessica Tan Joanne Peh Nat Ho Peggy PeiLing Rebecca Lim Violet Xiaxue Yanwen (A young mommy blog)

Friends-
Old Blog Benson ChingYing ChuXian Daphne Eeqa Esprimere Felicia Geraldine Grace Ivy Jaclyn Jane Jannah Jewel Jiahui Joy Katie Liane Mabel Nic PeiYin Shanice ShuXian Suyee Tingting WeiPing WeiYi XiangYue XiuRong Xuejing YaFang Yvonne

Past

Old Blog-
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